Too many things and so little time.  This is an overdue blog but it is going to have to be a condensed one. 

Number one, I can't wait to see Chrysalis on 12/3/06 -- I'm so happily ecstatic!

Number two, yes, I have moved again and sad to say, my granddaughters and my daughter did not come with me.  A few weeks ago, my daughter decided to give her notice at her job without any prospects and has decided to move her and the girls to Chillocothe, Ohio, to be nearer to her friends and Beetle and Turtle's father. 

One part of me wanted to protest, the last two years have had their ups and downs but things were stable for them and for me, which is the case in point I guess.  Anyway, she gave up an almost $40,000 a year job as of February 2007, I'm sure she won't make it that long, and is frantically searching for another job in a very poor area of Ohio.  My fingers are double crossed.

I initially thought this was the most terrible thing but I finally got my crap together and told her, Chrysalis and library woman, you will appreciate this!! (hehe)  Anyway, I said to her, I love you, I trust you, even though I don't understand you!!!!!!!! Where did that come from I wonder, shock and dismay LOL LOL

Then what happens, I actually find a wonderful apartment complex, complete with a private cinema in the clubhouse and an exotic work out room and I get pro rated rent until 1/1/07 - can't beat that deal.  I moved this past Sunday and low and behold the granddaughters are doing well!  I'm going to miss them like hell but I've got to let my daughter live her life.  Part of me knows she won't let herself be the mom I know she can be but she will provide for those children and not let them suffer.  I've had to let go of the part of me that wanted to be their mother or maybe the part of me that could be close to my daughter through her daughters.  I'm still working that one out.

Anyway, I'm feeling very selfish now because I'm feeling so content.  I'm supposed to be caring for others instead of myself but I can be happy caring for me instead of others, go figure!  I'm very confused on this subject right now but I'm enjoying the place I'm in.

Catch ya later, Blog!!